dilemma...

canoeing & volleyball training today!
i am seriously considering both.
unless shooting is better...
haiz.
my stress level is rising again.
maybe i shd list down the pros and cons.
OK.
Volleyball:
+ no trainings on sat
+ less vigorous
+ i love balls!
+ i want to learn smething practical
+ competition does nt affect CT.
+ ppl are nice
+ girls only
+ no huge arm muscles

canoeing:
+ i feel the fitness!
+ will be fun short term
+ friends are joining

oh gosh!!!
what a headache.
tml thn think.
i might not even stay in acjc
my results probably will not make it
i screwed up my O's.
screwed up big time!
seriously think i will get double digits.
any kind soul wants to enlighten me?
think i will continue my cca shopping.
till my cca charming comes and find me.
haha.
i am so dumb.
freaking over unimpt things like tt,
before i get my o's results.
dumb.
what if i get 20 pts?
forget bout canoeing
forget bout volleyball.
go poly.
give you an idea.
this is what i USED TO expect:
eng B3
the rest... A1
L1R5-8
this is what i NOW expect:
eng b4
humanities b4
maths A2
chem & bio A2
physics A1
A maths A1
L1R5- 14!!!
argh!
see what i mean?
forget it.