its sat again! always the day i look forward to in a week...
but again, the same dilemma today.
should i go or not? the only youth sister again...
i know i have to hang on! be the strong one...
but its tough. real tough.
the attraction of studying instead of going for meetings.
strong attraction.
help me!
Lord, attract me with Yourself!
i dont want to go just cos the other sisters are going...
its all excuses i know. but still...
my flesh is weak.
is this some kind of test?
with my failure in everything these days...
plus no sisters going for sat meetings...
how long can i perserver?
i really wonder...
the only reason that keeps me going...
its that i'm afraid if i stop going just cos of exams and studies now...
next year when it comes to a levels...
or when i move to yew tee...
i have no more willpower in persuading myself to go for meetings
even the Lord's table meeting.
i should perserver right?
Lord, gain me fully.
i want to give my all to You.
as long as You are with me, it doesn't matter if i fail everything else.
i need Your presence.