Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back.
Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late.

woah! packed the WHOLE day(and night) yesterday...literally...
definitely F-U-N! except the occasional fact of finding some stuff that has rotted or the files and books that were covered in dust...threw away quite a number of stuff too! hope i wouldnt regret it...
worried about my stuff toys!! muahhaha. how am i supposed to pack them in? wat if they get wet or spoiled on the way? with the other heavy boxes...would they be squashed? when shd i pack them in? hahaha.

didnt realise i had quite a lot of clothes... about 3 boxes of things and 3 boxes of clothes! my clothes seems to be one of my major assets! hahaha.. and i realised that i'm actually quite broke,i.e. i have nothing that seems worth stealing... oh well! that is normal, right?

today was brilliant! went ikea to buy my study room chair and lamp and weighing scale!! YAY! i can weigh myself everyday... make sure i dont grow horizontally anymore! muahahaha
then it was MEATBALLS! and cheese cake and almond cake for dinner!!! super yummy! and i can go there in the future for discounted meatballs!!! yay!

27th JUNE 2008!!!
a longawaited day since the start of june hols!
muahahaha. the last day of term exams!
went for celebrations!
haha.
subway for lunch!
plus that yummy mango pamelo with sago. really really nice!
campus meeting was really refreshing!
i guess its totally different being the youngest one again...
just there to be constantly supplied and nourished by the older ones (:
enjoyed that hymn!
I've wandered far away from God,
now i'm coming home;
The paths of sins too long i've trod,
Lord, i'm coming home.
coming home, coming home,
nevermore to roam;
Open wide Thine arms of love;
Lord, i'm coming home!

p.s. whatever my results will be, i have learned to accept the fact that i've tried my best, its all i've got. (unless its careless mistakes...) no use brooding over it and becoming all anxious, even worse than the beginning...

a bit late. but for memories sake... haha. FATHER'S DAY was great!!! SIX durians by mistake. i brought three to celebrate then my dad himself brought three!!! haha. total: SIX!!! super yummy! ever since east malaysia trip, i LOVEEEE durians....haha. it really changed my taste for durians.

am i distracted?

Nearer each day to me,
Dearer each day to me,
This Person inside me is
Becoming reality.
Saving me, loving me,
Faith and hope giving me.
You're all the world to me
Jesus, my Lord.

Even when faith is small,
When there's no hope at all,
I hear Him say to me,
Trust in Me and you'll see,
That I'll supply all your needs,
If only you will believe.
All anxious doubts will cease,
While trusting in Me.

never cease to trust in Him!!!
He can be everything to you!!!
simply give yourself to the Lord(:

There is another immediate result of sin
the breaking down of fellowship with God.
To a Christian, fellowship with God is a most glorious privilege.
Such fellowship is the greatest blessing he can have.
However, if he sins, he will immediately lose his fellowship with God.
The Holy Spirit within him will grieve for him,
and the life in him will feel uncomfortable about his sin.
He will lose his joy as well as his fellowship with God.
Formerly, when he saw God's children,
he was warmly attracted to them,
but now he no longer feels that warmth;
there seems to be a barrier between him and them.
Formerly, prayer and Bible reading were sweet.
But now they have lost their sweetness;
he can no longer touch God.
Formerly, he treasured the church meetings very much;
when he missed one meeting, he felt that he had suffered a great loss.
But now the meetings are tasteless to him;
it no longer makes a difference whether or not he goes.
When he sees God's children, he wants to run away instead of meeting them.
Everything has changed. It is a serious thing for a person to sin after he is saved!
We must never be loose in our conduct.
We must never tolerate sin and must never give ground to it.


i really enjoyed this message! may we all be kept in the fellowship with God all the days of our lives!!!

has anything changed? friends will always remain as friends. right?

was it a mistake from the beginning? or is it my imagination? were those lies worth that moment of happiness?

EAST COAST PARK today!!!
was a great blending!!!
hehee...i taught you how to cycle!!!
biggg accomplishment!
plus the cycling's great...
except that injury...
haha. but its okay! (its nt my first time falling anyway)
actually i kind of expected i will fall... like worst...
oh well!
so fun....the weather was great!
and i was still worried cos it rained so heavily yesterday...
Praise the Lord!
YAY! hope that there will be more more blendings next time!!! hehee
p.s. plus my yummy yummy coconut juice...

HAPPY B DAE to ana and me! haha. Praise the Lord for preserving us in Him for four years already... cant believe i'm sooo old!!! haha. it was a great day!!! Jack's place for dinner... then that special dessert... wats that dessert called again? haha. cant remember... may the Lord continue to keep us abiding in Him always (: i really enjoyed today's outing!!! its like being lame together again. its the old us. haha
p.s. a happy train ride too.

learning how to let go.

I serve a risen Savior
He's in the world today.
I know that He is living,
Whatever men may say.
I see His hand of mercy;
I hear His voice of cheer;
And just the time I need Him
He's always near.

He lives, He lives,
Christ Jesus lives today!
He walks with me and
talks with me along life's narrow way.
He lives, He lives,
salvation to impart!
You ask me how I know He lives?
He lives within my heart.

In all the world around me
I see His loving care,
And though my heart grows weary,
I never will despair;
I know that He is leading,
Through all the stormy blast;
The day of His appearing
Will come at last.

Rejoice, rejoice, O Christian,
Lift up your voice and sing
Eternal hallelujahs
To Jesus Christ the King!
The Hope of all who seek Him,
The Help of all who find,
None other is so loving,
So good and kind.

where were you when i needed you most?
who will always be there for me? no human being can.

my piano sucks
my studies sucks
my relationship sucks
what am i good at?
a good for nothing...

even my new specs also broke.

a terrible day...
what can i do but cry?

did i made the wrong choice? i must learn to balance my studies and relationships in life. my centre and focus will always be the Lord (: the next in my priority list should be studies only...

hiking yesterday!!! in Singapore somemore! from habourfront to alexandra road... never in my life did i ever dream of hiking in Singapore. muahaha. rather fun... though not as good as expected. guess my expectations are simply unreachable. a pity it rained... it could have been much more fun. it would have been even greater if we stopped halfway and had hymn singing!! overall, great blending with the central youths (: Praise the Lord for this blending! p.s. its probably the sharing of the brollies that brought us blending together!

it was a brief sad moment when the announcement was made. about our moving house and that the youth meeting place would no longer be at my house. i know the 'sadness' level would probably max. when we really leave. but still... i would miss my xiao guilin ): it is the place where my most vivid memories of friendship really started. it is the place where i mugged for O's. it was always there for me... so faithful and patient even when i screamed in frustration or banged on the piano. most importantly, it is the place where the Lord grew in me. through the many Lord's table meetings... i learned how to be responsible for my own house and things. i had the most joy in serving others, whether its laying out all the chairs before meeting or simply becoming one of the cleaning members after meeting. i will always remember you... always (:

another emotional outburst today! really dont know what striked me. worst still. in front of you. what a first bad impression!really sorry... didnt mean to look so pathetic especially since it was our first chat. Praise the Lord, He put me in your class (: you really got me thinking... gave me so many qns to ponder about.
one of the qns that really left me wondering was "what things have i done in my life that i know its really for myself?" i couldn't answer, still can't answer... isn't life all about living up to expectations? must it be for myself? if it is, wouldn't it be considered selfish? either way, i still have to do what i have to do... so, whats the diff between living for myself or living for others? i guess my search in life hasn't even began.

what is there in store for my future? i really wonder...

yesterday was THE day i looked forward to the whole week.
my pre-planned schedule:
11am visit new house (exciting)
12pm buy new specs, change eyes
2.30pm facial (pain!)
4pm cut hair(no comments)
6pm youth meeting!
but of cos in the end, everything pushed back cos we will late... cos of me actually. me and my indecisive thoughts. couldn't decide on which specs to chose... the red one with plastic lenses or the blue one with glass lenses. personally, i definitely prefer glasses with the red frame but of cos, things dont come easily. apparently, the red frame cant put glass lenses... which was super irritating. fumed over it throughout my facial, couldn't even slp. haiz.... but i guess its the frame i actually fall for more thn glass lenses! so red won the victory! kind of worried about the thickness though. pls dont let it be so thick! i cant stand thick lenses!!!! (hopeful)
speaking about the new house... hmmm i guess i had too high hopes. time to lower em! high hopes bring great disappointment. tt's a known fact. i guess i gonna get used to it. its just a matter of time. the only fact that comforts me is that it looks like my queenstown house. the house that i am fond of. its just like relishing all my memories of childhood each time i step into the house. same design and concept. oh well! it will look different when its done. hoping for the best! Praise the Lord for what He had given me (:
ALWAYS REJOICE, UNCEASINGLY PRAY, IN EVERYTHING GIVE THANKS FOR THIS IS THE WILL OF GOD IN CHRIST JESUS FOR YOU!

an interesting night on monday. rather memoriable in fact. didnt expect to obtain such juicy information. muahaha. well. i guess its mutual. i really dont know what to do or say. more nervous than ever though. what if...