worn out.

that fervour to burst into tears.
so familiar yet so hateful.
i didn't mean to do it.
i just couldn't control myself.

is there a mental sickness called worried?
i know i shdnt be too anxious about things.
it will cause my stress level to increase.
followed by the emotion outburst.

am i weird?
every time i feel angry,
i just wanna cry.
no.
i have to resist that urge.
strongly resist.
cos crying can be pretty addictive.
once i start, its difficult to stop.
its as if crying is bursting a bubble inside of me.
and the bubble's filled with water that would never cease to flow...

maybe i'm just too emotional about my results.
confirmed release on this coming friday.
every single moment i'm not doing anything,
i start to dream about friday.
about that slip of paper
that determines my future.
i really want to stay in ac.
pls?

feeling so empty today.
haven't had my fill of Christ today.

draw me, Lord;
lest these earthly cares consume my driven soul.
move me, Lord;
as a coursing river turns within Thine hands.
Draw me, Lord!