feeling lazy now. half day today cause of funorama. i managed to escape the clutches of outings today :P nowadays, i just feel like staying at home. you know, home sweet home. sick of outings. not like i would never see them again and must go for outings... maybe its just the dawn of realisation that i shouldnt be slacking so much...

its amazing how friendships can be made in one second and broken in the next. come to think of it, i dont have a wide circle of good friends, its either close few friends or hi-bye friends. honestly speaking, i feel that during the first three months of PAE, i have made only two real friends(according to my definition of friends), the rest are basically hi-bye friends. no doubt it was a short period of time, but we striked a rather deep, undescrible friendship. not like the common sort, but one which we can confine into the other when we have problems. i know time is required to maintain such a close relationship, if not it would also 'poof' and disappear.

i feel that there's no point in having a best friend, i prefer a circle of close friends. note the word 'a'. that person cannot always be there for me. at some point in life, she will just leave. people are selfish, no matter how 'best' of friends you may be with someone, it is impossible for that person to love you as much as herself. face reality!! its just the fallen flesh. therefore, i rather rely on a gingang of close friends, so that no matter where i fall, one of them would be there extending her hand for me. if one day, i cannot stand straight anymore, they can take turns supporting me :P i hope to play this role in other people's life too! may i be such a friend to somebody, even if that person isnt aware of that support.(:

Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer.